I spent so many years alone
Can’t do nothing just to come home
waiting for someone to color my world
Light the darkness and me to hold

I spare sometime to think over
I’m Only one and no one to care
Why loneliness captured my life
When I want to feel myself as a wife

Oh love……where are you?
Why don’t you share with me too?
Oh love…..kindly embrace me
Let loneliness set me free

I saw the beauty of the world alone
I don’t know why it take so long
When will be the magic will spark
All my life I was living in the dark

Oh love…..where are you?
Why don’t you share with me too?
Oh love….kindly embrace me
Let loneliness set me free……

She is all teal.
Blonde and blue.

I am swept away and scattered,
Just a wisp of cloud in your big sky.

And there’s this thin line
Keeping me from killing her.

But you don’t care -
Mesmerized by her figure.
I stare into her blackness.
Nights you held me close,
The safety of your touch -
Has been consumed by her need.

A whirlpool of energry
That you gave to her in doses.

Your first touches, kisses, moans
Belong to her memory.
[Treasured or not].
Moments you watched her, hands on her skin.

I claw at them like sand in my eyes.
I brush your love away like tears.

Baby what we could’ve been…
Time again - it echoes through my mind.

I love you so,
Even though,
you cant love me back,
‘cuz you got a girl,
to dance and twirl with,in the spring smelled, evening black,
but you told me you loved me too,
even though you cant,
but I’ll wait for you to love me,
and thats my promised fact.

“Looks like we’ve made it, look how far we’ve come my baby”. Nishane my love, from the very first time I heard your voice I fell in love with you. We talked everyday on the phone, because we where in each other schedule. I was the first to say I love you but you never told me back. I wrote you a poem like this:

If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine…
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

But you never wrote me back. Just tell me now Shane. What would it take for me to make you say “I love you”. You said ”nothing”. “Because living my life everyday and to see you that means I’m already in love with you.”

I was happy to hear him say that so he wrote me a poem.

Your lips speak soft sweetness
Your touch a cool caress
I am lost in your magic
My heart beats within your chest

I think of you each morning
And dream of you each night
I think of your arms being around me
And cannot express my delight

Never have I fallen
But I am quickly on my way
You hold a heart in your hands
That has never before been given away.

Watching the world,
Drift by with’a drowning sigh,
Hearts full of desired dreams,
Dreams of happiness,
Yet in reality
It’s just a loneliness world,
Filled with broken love,
Yet no one to connect with,
Aside me is fate,
Waiting for me to be the bait,
Life may continue,
Life may end,
The souls we joint together,
Swept away throu the wet weather,
With you gone,
What should I have done,
What did i do..
To make you cry?
Thou the thoughts of you to cry,
Would make life worse,
Our love turns dry,
Wind breezing into me,
Blowing me away,
From the one I loved-
The most,
But now I see,
You don’t want me to try-
and find you.

so theres this one guy named pablo i went out with him for awhile n i really liked him..i met hym cuz he kickes it wit some homies on my street..n hes one to..so any ways when i first met him i didnt like him i thought he acted like he was the shit but my sister told me to give him a chance so i did..he told me he had a girl friend ..and at the time i had a man ..but i wasnt trippen cuz i was gonna brake up with him n mat told me he was gonna brake up wit his girl n that he really liked me..so we went out and it was good at first..but we kept brakeing up n getn back together n one time i cought him cheating on me with some ugly ass heffer bitch!so i let him go..about a month later he kalls me n wants to pic me up to kickit..i say yea cuz i still hella love him..from there we were back together n things where going really good untill i took him to a party with me and found him kicken it wit some gurls..that same night i slept at his house but i didnt bring it up , i brought it up the day after when i was on the phone with him but that same night my phone broke n i lost his number and he never kald my house phone back ….i still saw him from time to time at my homies house down the street b cuz i was always over there..n the last time i kicked it wid him he was all tryna mess around with me but he left early so nun happend…the next day i find out he took my phone nd he hit my best friend bcuz she was trying to get it from him[i wasnt there] but man i still hella love him and every time i think of him i hate the feeling i get ..my friends tell me im dumb but they dont know what me n him had..and when all that happend he was on drugs so i know it wasnt really him im hoping it was the drugs..n i c him every couple weeks b cuz hes always at my homies house on my street n it kills me when i c him..and for the longest i thought he had got me prego after we where dont and when i found out i wasnt i was kinda sad..dumb huh he treats me like shit and stole my stuff but i would still use any exuse jus to b with him…idk what to do…!!!:’[

No one knows what’s inside my heart
I don’t want us again to be apart
I’ve tried not to like you
Not to mention forgetting you
But it’s hard.
Each day I get to know you
Each day I get hurt.
Knowing that you love her
And she loves you too.
I promised I won’t ever think of you
But now here I am
Writing a single word just for you
It hurts so much
That even words can’t explain it.
I can show what I feel, I love you.
But my heart is hiding the pain, I’m losing you.
I don’t want to see you get hurt
And lose the one you like
So I’ll do everything for you
Coz I don’t want to see you cry.
Even though I’m hurting myself
I can try to keep the pain.
As long as you’re happy
I am happy too.
The pain inside here, my heart
Will forever stay
Including the happiness I saw in you.
You’ve became an inspiration for me
But I can’t tell you
How much I care for you.
I’m too scared to tell you
Coz I’m just a friend for you
I don’t wanna know the truth
The truth that I can’t have you

In our mind, most thoughts start out as simple ones,
How we feel, what we say, what we do, that’s how they have begun,
As our thoughts are beginning, they are taking roots like seeds,
Controlling and weeding our thoughts most definitely we need.We need to focus on things that are good things, yet
We need to keep positive thoughts in our mind set.
Nurture your thought-seeds, and get rid of the bad ones,
Make sure you have a positive attitude, as your thoughts come.

does he understand how much time I’ve spent thinking of Him?
How much I’ve dreamt of him being mine…
Loving me, cradling me in his arms.
He needs to know that whatever anyone might say I’m Gonna love him forever.Does he know that everyday,every night I look out of my Window and think of him?
And when I move what then?
Will he miss me or forget the love we ever had?
Does it even occur to him he may never see me again?
Could he live without never seeing me?
The last month I’ve got here is special to me and without Him ever knowing what I feel for him or what he feels for Me could tear me and him apart so what do I do?
Tell him or forever
Hold my
Thoughts inside?

Your hugs are amazing…
Your kisses a treat…
Your so darn beautiful…
Your love is so sweet…

When I first met you…
I wondered away…
Where has she been…
Up to this day…

The best part of all…
Was when i knew you loved me…
And i loved you so much…
I was so free…

I’m always falling,
But nobody catches me…
I don’t know where to find love,
And I hate feeling so helpless…
With nobody to help me get through.

Help me find the way,
That leads me to love…
A path that is full of smiles…
That brings me closer to you.

I love you so much,
But now that you’re gone…
I’m so lost…
Alone and hopeless…
I’m so weak and not at all strong,
Let me run home,
Which is your heart…
To where I belong.

I was 14 and he was about to turn 16. We both met through friends wanting us to meet, and we both quickly agreed to. He called me up one night and we started talking for about a week, then the next day he asked me out by text.I said yes because he seemed nice and he was handsome. We really did love each other, or atleast I really loved him. He was my first kiss.Things were going great after 3 and a half months, but then he told me he was going to move and wouldnt be able to see me because he would be working. He later then called me and told me that we would have to go on a break and we would still be really good friends.He promised me that things would get better, so I believed him. I cried myself to sleep for about a week, and couldnt stop thinking about him. It was then he never called me again. I found out about 2 weeks later he went back out with his ex and totally just forgot about me. I really didnt know what I thought about him then.I knew we were on a break and that means you can see other people, but he told me he loved me and didnt want another girl. After maybe a month I heard that he cheated on that girlfriend and then went out with the girl he cheated with. Till this day I still think about him. He was my first love, but sometimes the person you think is the one isnt meant to be. Sometimes I wonder if I still do love him. I honestly dont know if I do.