I grew up with broken relationships all over me, my siblings, my friends and my relative’s even people I don’t know but share their stories about falling apart and how they fooled themselves out of love.How men cheat and how women cry. How they fought and how they reconcile. How they lived and how they separate from each others lives. I used to tell myself maybe that’s how love works and that’s how people think of love.

I’m a dreamer, when I was young I even dreamed of being with a prince charming though I’m not a princess. Time passes and my obsession with love grew out of me. I believe that I will make a difference when it comes to love, that I will justify everything people can’t seem to understand. I thought that when I finally found the one, the whole world will rejoice. But the exact opposite just happened, everybody just got disappointed when I finally found the one. The one I never knew who’ll complete me, but still made me feel empty even more when he’s not around. A relationship which I have to sacrifice and suffer a lot. But still I’m holding on. All my life I’d always wonder why people tend to ruin other relationships, just like what happened to my aunts, my friends and my cousins. Why do people still fall for someone who’s already taken? A big question that I thought I can easily answer till then. Yes I am a bad person. I’m pure evil loving someone and be with someone who already has his family. Shame on me people is judging me. But this is me, my very first relationship, my very first reality. Here I am, incompletely happy. Sometimes I kind of asking myself on what have I done in this world to deserve this? Or what the heck had gotten to me, why do I enter in this kind of thing. But you know what as brave as I am still I have no reasons. What I know is I love him and I want to fight for him, just don’t know how. I’m not even sure if I can. All eyes are on me, critics are there eating me alive. Sometimes I want to run out of my life. I know sooner or later this will definitely end and I can’t be prepared. I don’t know if I still can. I’m in the losing end and I’m a pathetic loser. But I’m also a person and I used to be a critic, so don’t judge me. You will never know unless you’re here… and for sure you will never understand!!! Yes I am the girl on the other side… Haven’t you met one?

Written by Lio Rin