When I was in high school, 16 years old, I met this guy named Ferdie… We had a great time being together with growing special feelings in both of us but unfortunately we didn’t bring it up. I have to leave the place and move to the city to continue my studies in college. Since then the communications stop and I never heard anything about him. For five long years, I live my life as a simple student and didn’t give time to engage in a romantic relationship. I finished my studies. When my 22nd birthday came, I celebrated it with my high school friends, surprisingly my long lost love Ferdie appeared in front of me… I was shocked because I don’t know what to do until I found myself embarrassing and kissing him, I miss him so much and realizing that I still love him. In my mind, he was my destiny because after how many long years of not being together the feelings were extremely strong. I thought that he was God-given to me. I gave him everything! He was my life and my all! We almost lived like a couple and I considered him as my partner in life and when we were together, there’s no room for sadness. Until my greatest fear happened… One day, I went to his apartment and cleaning his room, I found a used condom in the trash can! I just kept silent and hide the pain I am feeling on that moment. I didn’t ask him anything about that stupid thing I found. Then, so many changes happened… I asked him through text messaging, what it seems to be the problem. He just answered me “Sorry for everything! Forget me. I am living in now with Elvie”. I felt like hell. I really want to die on that moment but that was the last time, I talked to him. I never asked him why he did it me. I never demanded any explanation from him and never shed a single tear for him after realizing that he’s not worth it! I just live my life again. Stronger! I went to the province and met Bob, he courted me, I told him my past and he accepted me for what I am and for what I was and now we’re together… the happiness resides in us just like heaven. Love and get hurt, get hurt and learn, learn and love, love and love again! I am the happiest woman now, madly and deeply in love with my baby Bobby!

Written by naturaliza